sometimes i get lost inside myself, i let my emotions rule everything around me, how i just can’t control it and it slowly takes over me without me realizing it the very moment. i get so convinced that my life is just not worth it. how almost everything i do is wrong. how almost everything i say is wrong. i know they’re mistakes but i keep making them. and i keep repeating the same mistake unconsciously over and over again. i lost count of how many times i’ve said sorry. more than enough. it’s like my words mean nothing, just another grain in the sand, i can dump my hand inside the pile and blow it all away. nothing. i want to keep my word and make a promise actually mean something again.